Dear Carla,
I read your book God’s Callgirl,my 83year old mother had it in her book shelf. Your life story makes sense to me, it is your story so I repect that.There is a lot that I can identify with in your life though from a diferent angle,you had a lot of guts to write such personal information. I remember reading about Robbie Burns’ poem-basically showing to be given the grace to see ourselves as others see us. I could write a response to some of the ideas that you wrote about but not now!I put a web link to Dr. Conrad Baars (RIP). I thought that you might be interested in his life and research as he and his other professional co worker Anna Terewe are both originally from Holland. Dr. Baars in the sixties (USA) was alarmed at the disproportional amount of religious sisters that were showing signs of deprivation neurosis(it reflects your own experiences of dehuminisation). I have read most of their books such as Healing and Feeling ones’emotions,Affirmation Therapy. I would strongly advise you to borrow,steal or buy these books,they certainly helped me many years ago and I think their holistic approach would help to give you a better self understanding in the light of truth. Love you Carla and may God Bless you!

Greetings from Tim.